senseless

what happened in maguindanao yesterday is purely evil... and as a matter of fact senseless... i wonder how the minds of these people conceive such actions... in an obvious state, who would take the lives of defenseless and clearly non-aggressive women out to file a certificate of candidacy to challenge the incumbent politician... in an obvious state, the incumbent politician has not issued any statement (admittance, denial, or the standard "we will investigate and bring justice to these criminals") regarding incidents within his own backyard... in an obvious state, a presidents' absence of political will to arrest and persecute the characters of this senseless violence...
i wonder how someone would ask his/her God for forgiveness on this... one can convince the whole world that he/she didn't lift a finger on this, but can that person convince himself/herself and his/her God?
a life-giver lost her life to the very people given life by their mothers... how can i even convince myself to forgive these people...

a conversation

"Do you believe in God?"

"Yes I do" I answered. "Why do you ask?" I shot back.

"Do you really believe that your God can save you?"

"Of course I do, What kind of question is that?" I insisted.

"If so then jump from this tall building and believe that you wont die and your God or His angels will save you"

"Ah... I've heard that one before, and I can still remember the answer..." I responded.

But then I remember I'm not JC. Damn, How would I... How could I...

I realized that i have heard that questions before and i know the answer but it was never directed to me. Not until now...

"Well, I don't think that is what God wants me to do." I reasoned out.

"Im pretty sure that if I jump on that building I be will saved, if not my physical form... then definitely my soul..." whew, nice one.

"But God doesn't want me to do that, He wants me to spread His words... and His love."

"There are already so many people doing that."

Whoa, I wonder where do he get his persistence.

"And I'm one of them..." I said, smiling sheepishly... I knew I have won the battle, but the war is still far from over...

then silence....