bittersweet symphony

i've known her since she was a little girl... i always thought she would be a nice girlfriend someday. i even have dreams for her and unknowingly she has fulfilled those by herself...

then came a chance, after like years of waiting (our paths crossed twice in manila, 1 in absinth, the other time in rufino, she saw me but we were not able to talk)... then finally i got to talk to her... the day of the innocents... and innocence were lost

i felt like im ready to fall again, and it's good.. coz in the process i might be able to sunset my feelings for "someone" ;-)

i asked for signs... my mom wept when she knew about it, it was the very first time me and dad had disagreement, my sis was cool about it but gives crazy comments...
i stubbornly followed what i feel and think would be the next best thing to do... i had some really valid reasons that's why i asked her to be with me...

then i let myself fall, at the same time having a parachute in my back just in case...
days pass... some were really happy and intimate... some were boring and sad... but i kept it real
she has games of her own, so i was glad i have the parachute

finally after all the charades (mine included) we have to part, coz it "might be" nonsense to be staying together....

... to be continued

waters of march

my last blog: december 09, 2005

somehow i almost forgot my login name and password too...

what happened to me? what's with the title?
christmas came, new year, then my birthday.... then new work, a gf, a gf no more...
too many to write here right now

i was talking to kai and and telling her i feel like graduation day... sad but happy, somehow expecting and losing something at the same time...
see march is when most graduations are done and it would be march next week...
waters is for tears...

the story... i will write later...

and yes the music is waters of march (french version by jill caplan)